You are old now…

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Deep in the night
the Spirit said to me:

Yes, you are old now.
And your wholeness
is to be known
not in desperately
trying to remain young
but in discovering and being
this old self,
in its uniqueness and
continuity with all
that is and was
and is to come.
Accept this willingly
and a grace-filled peace
you have not yet known
shall be yours.

© 2015 Dennis Ference

This Thing Called Grace

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You need this,
she said unexpectedly,
peering into my troubled eyes,
this woman, this casual acquaintance,
apparently aware of my circumstance,
the one which had been draining,
straining, and mercilessly
maiming me.
The days ground on
and her words kept rattling,
reverberating in my abused brain
like the endless taunts
of a childhood bully.
But as I continued
to encounter “my circumstance,”
these “taunts” gradually morphed into a mantra
and letting go became a little easier each day,
sleep a little sounder,
and I began to understand
surrender as if for the first time
and to celebrate anew this mystery,
this thing called grace.

© 2015 Dennis Ference

…it’s killing you.

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Deep in the night
the Spirit said to me:

Stop it! Just stop it!
Stop having to be right,
to be on top,
to be in control.
Stop trying
to have more things,
newer gadgets,
grander vacations,
and bigger houses.
Stop trying to please,
to be accepted,
to be respected,
and loved by all.
And for heaven’s sake,
stop trying to put me
in your back pocket.
I can give you
lots of reasons why
I’m telling you this,
but for tonight
I will only say this:
what you are doing
is insanity and
it’s killing you.

© 2015 Dennis Ference